Shooting star ?

The beauty in art would, perhaps, remain pure without the tumultuous weights of pretension.

People everywhere fail to simply enjoy.  They are either too lazy to care, or they vitally defend their knowledge of a melody, or prose, as if the aggression and agility of their response proves them adequate… for what I’m not sure.  Conversations have become more like civil wars over the pseudo-wisdom each person possesses.

————————————

I am a non-person.

Lying in my bed, attempting to disappear, I merely get thrown back into the reality of what’s going on in yours. Could I pull off the same thing? Most definitely not!  Although, intoxication caused by lust & alcohol is known to render a girl irresponsible. (To say the least.)

Pink Camels & Devendra Banhart

A cigarette completely calmed every nerve in my body last night, at least back to their normal level of sensitivity/stress.
Now, it would seem I would take up further interest… however, I’m not one for substance abuse. I don’t want to be “a smoker” and I dont want to damage my health if I can help it that much. Health is a precious thing. Too precious to fuck around with rat poison and all those other fine components. Not to say that those who stay away from blunts, bongs, and beers are guaranteed a clear slate. Life is funny that way… however, for now i would like to refrain from poisoning my precious lungs, those that have dealt with so much already from me.. kept me alive and got me through all the hyperventilations & screaming fits. It would just be completely foolish for me to, with my new found fresh air, cloud it up again on my account. On the other hand, the cigarette was a great brand choice and all that. For all you smokers out there… pick up a pack of Camel No. 9′s … the black box with the pink camel

This entry is very rough and not as flowy as i would’ve liked… but i miss writing in this thing so i guess ill attempt to loosen up & just go with it

I went to the second concert in the line up last night. Devendra Banhart
It was amazing. On so many levels. Watching the show, you found yourself zoning out, but not in the sense of one who can’t keep focus on the music, but in the sense of one who is breathing every ounce of it in until a lightheaded high ensues. A natural high. Devendra put a band of men together, who all had their own artistic projects going on, and they formed a band called Zpiritual Boner, a name which they changed every show prior to thus far. The venue was great for the music it housed that night. The mysterious and celestial atmosphere only aided in clearing your mind for all that was about to enter it. Just as the show seemed like it found a meditatious pattern, it found itself jumping straight into a pool of latino live band street fair. People could dance if they wanted, even sit, lay, or stand. I found myself trying every one of the options and they all worked fantastically. Amazing music, amazing show… i purchased his newest album Smokey Rolls Down Thunder Canyon and i definitely suggest a listen or two!

Next up on the concert line up is Blindside
it should be a slightly different spin of musical zeal

how many licks does it take to get to the tootsie roll center of a tootsie pop?

… apparently somewhere around 457… however that holds no relevance to the rest of my post

im worried about my sister- shes headed down a bumpy road and i wish i could help her
i try but she doesnt seem to take my words as strongly as they are intended

i really should get out of bed and do something with my day… my phone keeps notifying me that someone is attempting to contact me .. however here i lay a few feet off the ground on this super comfy mattress of down and theraputic foam .. which could quite possibly be the reason my sinuses are in a chaotic frensy

anywho… i think im done for now

grand lux

my first real date ever was last night… (at least the first “date” my memory deems worthy to recall) sure i’ve been out with guys to a variety of places.. out to eat, to the movies, amusement parks .. what ever.. but i’ve never actually been asked to go out, had to get all dressed up after finally deciding on the perfect outfit after 2 hrs.. well last night was the first- what i want to consider anyway.. my first date- it was amazing, my date was extremely handsome and quite sexy… we arrived at the grand lux cafe looking mighty fine.. and we were treated fantastically.. ate crabcakes, duck, and indochine shrimp and chicken… and to finish it off we had some strawberry shortcake… all of those being firsts for me! (well i’ve had shrimp, chicken, duck, and crab before.. however it wasn’t prepared quite like that) it was a night i’ll never forget and will always proudly recall and tell in full detail to anyone who would want to listen… i felt amazing .. my self confidence was at a healthy level for once and the bathroom had kick ass sinks!!!

so to my incredible date… i owe you a grand amount of thank yous and all such things… it was officially added to one of the best nights of my life list <3

not sure where to begin

I’ve gone through a few online journals in my day… I’m quite fond of documenting my life whether it be through photographs or journals… which is why I’ve decided to start wordpress. Anywho… lately life has been comprised of great change. I was stuck in quite the rut the last few years… terrible home life and just not really finding myself where i belonged… all that is gradually becoming only my past life and im starting to mend my wounds with the help of a few great individuals… im finding my motivation and creative soul again and its lovely- however, its not all smooth sailing… my mind is still stuck behind in bad negative forms of thinking i owe a great amount of thanks to those who remain close to me- i tend to give em hell sometimes heh

yes… so for what ever reason i have yet to finish book 7 of the harry potter series… one i started way back in 5th grade and have been extremely enthused about ever since- so much so that i typically finish each book in under/about 24 hrs time immediately after unwrapping it from the amazon packaging… however with this particular book i have yet to get past chapter 8 and its been a few weeks since its release. im really testing my luck here with finding out the ending from someone else.. oh well.

i started updating my music again. which is always an amazing sign for those of you who arn’t aware

oh i went shopping yesturday!!! it was excellente… i actually spend money on myself… damn.

yeah idk i have to warm up a little to this wordpress thang..
goodbye for now